Miisha, please don’t go! I saw you’ve deleted your Matrix… please reach out again. You are one of the best friends I’ve had in a very very long time. If you hadn’t reached out to me in the first place through here, I’d still be so lost… hell, I’m gonna be lost without you. This last month has been a time of looking forward to your chats and responses damn near every day… It’ll really suck without you… please don’t go over a couple crappy days… I still wanna talk games and animanga with you, and learn more from you, and help you where I can as well… you haven’t been a burden at all - really, you’ve been the opposite.

SORRY. No, no sarcasm. Genuinely thankful and feeling stupid as I have paperwork literally telling me it’s fine and I read it as it wasn’t fine because I didn’t read closely enough. THANK YOU A TON

Didn’t think of a numbing cream! I’ll look into it ASAP, I keep going and the laser technician needs to turn it down every time to get through the full session… thank you so much! I’ve always felt cursed with black hair that’s visible even when shaved, but knowing that in the long run it’ll be better for laser at least, I have hope. I had heard about orange concealer, but never the “why” - thank you loads! <3

Thank you so much Azalea, your comment made me realize just how stupid I was about the paperwork full of warnings for during laser… I can use makeup while undergoing it. :D

Thank you so much! <3

Omg thank you so much. Sorry for the late response, I’ve been having a time and coming back to this post makes me too aware… ;-;

Saving this for later when I have more than a couple dollars in the bank… struggling with food rn. Desperately need to find some kind of income source that doesn’t make everything worse so I can keep affording HRT and literally anything to make my situation better… thinking of selling an expensive laptop and replacing it with a 4GB RAM ROC Libre Computer… I mostly use said laptop for a web browser plugged into a TV, so I think it’ll work well? Only thing is I lose years of stickerbombing the thing… D:.

VEET sounds amazingly nice, I’m gonna look into that right now. Chemical burns sounds bad though… I have pretty sensitive skin… currently struggling with minor folliculitis all over my legs and shoulders (worst fucking spots for fashion, fml). I plan to laser my body, but rn “wait a few weeks for everything to grow back” sounds like the best - currently shaving my body with razors and it lasts less than a week… and not like I can afford more laser rn anyways. Worried about electrolysis afterwards, because of my current financial struggle too, but that’s the plan…

Thank you so much Vibi, you’re truly wonderful and amazingly helpful… I only wish I could follow this NOW. ugh… will do ASAP for sure though! Thanks!

Hey Brooke,

I tend to lurk, and not post much… And I definitely haven’t been through nearly as much as you have, but that sounds like absolute hell. You’re really strong for sticking through all you’re going through, and I’m happy (proud the right word?) you’re such a wonderful person despite it all - not everyone can stick through and still be around to help others as I regularly see you doing here, and you have inadvertently done for me in doing so. Forgive me, but your ex is a shitbag, and while it sounds like your ex-friend isn’t much better, its clear you do still care… And believe me I get the feeling… Its hard to stop caring for those we love even after things end terribly and become a toxic mess. Sending virtual hugs from California your way!🫂🫂

If you want to vent or talk, feel free to message me. If you’ve got Matrix that makes it easy (would prefer to give that in a DM tho). I’d really like to help however I can girl…

Omg, it’ll be a while before I can share in trans_joy unfortunately ;-; - thanks though!

To think there is such a thing as otter love nobody knew they needed is heresy! I love otters, I have half a dozen otter plushies I was gifted annually as a small child - absolute cutest aquatic critters, I swear! Otter love appreciated <3

LMAO

Undertale is definitely my fav from your list lol. I love the Life is Strange games, but I have yet to play beyond LiS 2. I’ve replayed Before the Storm more times than I can remember. I love Metroid Dread, been meaning to play Prime for years now… my first Metroid was Super Metroid on the SNES Classic and holy crap that game is one of my favorites ever in terms of atmosphere and is something I always refer to as like, the best way to start a story! Can’t say much as to the others personally, but I’ve heard good things about all of them.

You tried Deltarune yet?

Hey girl, welcome!

My first post on this account was venting like, a week ago in the comments on a meme post >.< - I’m sure your normal introduction is fine here lmao.

To relate some; It took me months to come to a name I liked. It’s taking me much longer to be happy enough with myself to feel comfortable posting pictures. But one day I swear, I will be posting in trans_joy, and I’m sure you may be able to as well - give yourself the time you need (if you ever want to of course, I totally get there are other reasons to not want to as well)! :D

Sending hugs your way! <3

P.S., I am absolutely intrusive enough to ask - what are your favorite games? :3

AHHHH, I’m so sorry. Thank you though. As I’m aware, puberty lasts around 10 years and yeah… I’m definitely impatient about it sometimes. In all honesty I do think I have a decent chance at passing - its just that friends don’t really know like… Anything about this stuff… I’m one of the only trans people they know at all, if they know any, and even if they do I’m the one they’re closer to so in the one who gets fielded questions I don’t always have answers to despite really wanting them if that makes sense. I really appreciate your kindness.

1. 1.5mls SubQ weekly and one 0.5MG pill of dutasteride per night.
2. Whatsawhawha?
3. I’ve noticed very little since starting estrogen. Body mass redistribution is noticeable in my figure. I grew boobs pretty fast, but that slowed quick too and I am ultimately still pretty flat. Noticeable decrease in muscle mass. Body hair slightly thinner. The world appears visually more saturated… Can’t tell if that’s placebo, but it never went away and was pretty instant.
4. Yes, truth serum is alcohol, and I don’t tend to drink often but sometimes when I do I can overdo it which is a problem, yeaaah. Trying to be better any time I do, and have been successful generally. I appreciate the concern but no need to worry.
5. Super hard to tell. Yes and no? Everyone in my life is suuuuper busy, and I usually get to talk to any one person once a week or so. Those that aren’t are the sort that are supportive, kind, and willing to learn, but don’t know much and so I can’t really go to in any sense other than occassional vent-space. I don’t like venting to people too much either, which ultimately leads to bottling up and then… Well… The occasional vent anyways… Which I like even less. I do have matrix, and would absolutely appreciate any extra support I’d you’re willing to give any.

Also, don’t worry about asking questions, I’m a pretty open book and you’re offering support. Thank you. <3

I started on my 23rd! Thank you for the kind words. Yeah, the “give it a year” thing is what I keep telling myself. Paranoia and impatience have me in an occasional spiral like the above… Sorry about that. Trying to workaround it best I can in the meantime by learning better fashion, but I gotta say I don’t think everything I’m trying is working and I definitely don’t have funds to throw at a wall figuring it out right now. I’m lost.

I’d love to chat! <3

Omfg I wish. 23, Barely 3 months into estrogen… Only maybe a month into deutasteride… And well I don’t exactly pass. At least YET… I think I can one day I can but am really really uncertain about now or how. I don’t see “passing” as a requirement but when it FEELS possible… Well… Yknow… Hard to get my mind off of. I get those looks in my redneck-ass hometown if you get my meaning, but I still feel like I’m just passing as “gay”… I reaaaally don’t know where I’m at and am… Ugh. Def somewhere between " gay" and just “emo” I think? Hard to tell alone.

Okay, tbh idk. If anyone active in this community is willing to DM and help or someone know what/where is a good place I should post, it’s much appreciated - been lurking for years now - y’all are the most welcoming community ever, and have me hopeful enough I’ve switched my lemmy instance… Feeling like this might be opportune time?

Note: this post (comment… I’m so sorry…) probably looks a lot more spiral-ey than intended upon rereading it… Sending it as is because I still honestly have no idea how to word this better… Thanks to anyone who tolerates this, you’re the best, really. Might delete soon for sake of others if I’m a total idiot… May have a bit of truth serum flowing through me rn if you catch my drift…

Edit: …yes… “Truth serum” is alcohol. And uh… Definitely too much last night. Apologies for the vent.

Your bookmarks must be very interesting… Mind sharing for those of us that are absolute reading whores? (´･ω･`)

Wherever you are, your contributions are very well appreciated! I live in a very small town and use OSM. Idk who mapped this place, but having maps away from Google in such a small place makes me happy. Again, wherever you are, you are contributing to a cause that can help free people from big tech monopolies and actually advances human society forever.

You are part of the reason people like me who don’t have time to contribute to such efforts can use these apps anyways. Part of the reason adoption is possible. Part of the reason OSM can grow beyond just whatever you’re documenting.

Thank you, really. <3

Her ghost half looks fiiiine. Look at that smile. Cutie is totally unfazed, lol.