oh yeah! a lot of this pressure was just in my head, but there are cues i got from my partners that reinforced the roles. it was different with men and women. its not so easy to project heteronormativity on gay stuff, but even gay guys (who would have known!) wanted me to be a guy. only once or twice did i have partners with whom i didn’t feel such pressure. and i still refused to understand.

i know, and accept, i am trans for some 14 months now. last night i realised that all of my problems with romantic and sexual relationships can be explained with “yep. im girl*”. – 4 yrs ago i drew a diagramm for my therapist trying to explain how “my desire” works. there was a shit ton of arrows, and items like “being the object of others desire” … cringe rationalisations on top of cringe rationalisations.

it takes a while to understand yourself. <3

*still not super sure about that label. maybe read: def not boy.

ne gute crème! löst nicht alle probleme, aber hilft mMn ganz gut.

also … nach 2040 sind sie wieder in betrieb?

the identity thing. as far as i see it’s usually white people who do this. to gain ethnic distinction?

sure its fun to find out more abt what your granparents did (unless you are german).

if i had the power to do so, i’d give you a french passport right away.

maybe clearing this up: germany has a hereditary citizenship. i. e. children of germans can get a german passport.

being “german” means owning german citizenship (or citizenship of the one of the former constructs the federal republic sees as its precursors), not owning a set of genes. you can have no ‘distinct european genes’ (e.g. be ainu?) at all and get citizenship for your kids, as long as you have it. you can be “genetically german” and still don’t have a passport.

jus sanguinis usually isn’t genetically defined

• “germans”, “french”, “danes” weren’t a thing. up until recently. they are genetically diverse groups.

• euros aren’t all nobles. i don’t know my grandmas maiden names.

• there was a lot of movement (read: fucking around) in europe. what do these tests even mean by “dutch”?

did anyone ever get a passport because some lab result said they were 10% “genetically slovakian”?

by all means do. but don’t put that on facebook?

their obsession with genome analysis / where one of their great-great-grandfathers came from.

“i am italian, german, polish, chinese and cree!” “no, you are us-citizen and don’t speak any language but english.”

stay safe. this all feels very familiar. let’s survive! :)

“neee, neee, warnblinker tun wir auch ins menü unter: auto > beleuchtung > außenbeleuchtung > weitere signale > warnblinker, dann brauchen wir keinen knopf einzubauen. das stört nur das minimalisische design.”

“gute idee, das ist die zukunft der fahrzeugbedienung. ich bin froh, dass sie für uns abeiten!”

noooooo!! 😢

my employer using windows on their machine is their problem. i could be faster via bash in several instances, wouldn’t have to wait ours for updates to be done … but i get to drink tea and listen to complaints about outlook from my co-workers.

it’s okay. i get paid.

0: i tinkered with linux as a kid. didn’t get it. no games?

1: in uni i went back to trying it out. mostly over microsofts policies.

2: i was surprised that the green and orange variety of it-just-works-linux were super comfy to set up.

3: in my dual boot phase a windows update messed up the boot loader.

4: i decided to wipe the win-partition with a wire brush, and never looked back.

shout it from the rooftops!

was los wär, wollte die eu californien von den usa wegorientieren.

investigatiiiiiiiv.

dark matter is a stand in, not a known type of particle. astronomers realized, that in galaxies there had to be way more mass than is visible due to the movement of stars within. but since it couldn’t be detected in any other way than through its gravitational influence, it was called dark matter.

this person has given the best answer so far. there is no thing we could identify as dark matter. the concept of it is more like a roadmap, a question to be answered.