Mostly making this bc I felt my comment below didn’t deserve its own post as such.
I hope everyone here is having a good day <3
You too 🥰🥰🥰
Back at home and I’m not out to my family. I love hearing that I look so similar to my brother. It’s just awesome. Ans being called a handsome man. Jfc I want to die
[NSFW] had a somewhat silly experience feeling euphoria buying cute underwear that actually fit for the first time and the brand being ‘male power’. I bought them to surprise my bf but also I got my first actually good vibrator so he might be obsolete :p jk!
There are years where nothing happens, and threads where hot minutes happen
It dawned on me today that the reason people no longer ask me if I’m a girl or a guy isn’t because I no longer pass, but because they just assume I’m a girl, 1 preacher guy called me “sister”, another guy thought I was flirting with him and the women at the postal office kept calling me “daughter”… I didn’t realize this before because I don’t talk a lot with people.
Can you want to be a girl but be mostly okay with the body you were born?
absolutely
there are a lot of mostly non-dysphoric trans people
Definitely! There are different aspects to identity and especially dysphoria. So for instance, it sounds like you don’t have a lot of physical or body dysmorphia whereas you do struggle with social dysmorphia. It might be worth reflecting on what aspects of femininity or ‘girlhood’ resonate with you and how/whether you can incorporate them into your life.
This is some complicated stuff.
It’s not easy but its well worth thinking through :)
trans rights!
I’ve only been on progesterone for two weeks and i could swear my boobs are already growing.
I wish you a very breastful weekend.
bit of a rant but i hate how every time i mention that i’d prefer to have authority and control over my body without having to convince a team of psychologists that i’m trans (plus another psychiatrist for a second opinion), i get told how good it is they’re being so thorough.
i can enlist in the fucking army and get my entire face tattooed with less hurdles, but getting access to the care i know i need to not rot away in dysphoria? think about all the confused cis people demanding hormones en masse!! either that or they’re not convinced i’m trans bc “there weren’t any signs!”
I saw some old friends yesterday, which was wonderful, it was great to catch up. The thing was I’m not out to them. I meant to come out, but I just like never found the right time. So I boymoder, kind of. It was like a questionable boymode where I had my hair down and women’s skinny jeans and my nails are painted purple.
I think they knew something was up, because several of them kept mentioning random trans people that they knew, just like randomly. I started doing it to, and we basically had this weird conversation about transness while I sat there sweating. Also, at one point, my friend looked at me and said “you look a lot brighter recently also, i like your earrings btw”. i didn’t know how to respond to that and was very awkward.
This is fucking embarrassing. Why didn’t I just come out? Wtf
same thing happened to me with my cousin like 8 months after I started coming out. I tried to boymode but he figured it out and texted me afterwards to apologize for misgendering me and deadnaming me, asking what he should call me going forward. it was really mature and I appreciated him a ton. I didn’t come out to him because that side of my family isn’t safe (my dad, his parents, etc. are all extremely queerphobic / fash adjacent or outright fash). so I asked him not to out me to anyone other than his wife. I did get outed but idk by who.
I suggest thinking about who in that group is safe and coming out to them - it sounds like they’re all trying to be helpful/supportive and I think you’ll be pleasantly surprised. plus it’s a huge weight off your shoulders.
It’s hard, don’t feel too bad! You didn’t know how they was gonna be going in and decided to play it safe. And then once your information changed, it felt like too long of a wait. Now you know at least that it won’t be horrible when/if you do tell them next time :)
That’s a better way to look at it. Thanks.
Lmao I can imagine they talking about all those trans people and you’re there like
But don’t worry, I’m sure you will come out to them soon :)
Coming out is fucking hard, don’t beat yourself up.
When I was doing it, it helped in each instance to have someone who already knew also in the room with me. Not possible in every circumstance but like, it can be hard to accept that people will be supportive even when you know for a fact they will be, so having someone around who already knows and is supportive is so helpful
god dammit, I didn’t see this and made a separate thread for this. it’s a really well-written deep-dive into the weird shit that goes on inside the heads of repressed trans people. take your hormones - they’re wonder drugs, the true panacea.
I just figured out that I am trans, and now I need to figure out how to tell someone IRL.
I ordered a skirt. Also some more androgynous clothes that I’m brave enough to actually wear outside, but I’m still most excited about the skirt.
After watching several hours of mtf make-up tutorials I also got some make-up basics I can try playing around with, but not that much because so much of it is absurdly expensive, and I don’t know what suits me yet.
being involved with other trans women recently has been incredibly affirming for my own gender as a trans woman. almost no dysphoria from it and its all affirming and enjoyable. feels great to be really treated like a woman.
dysphoria fueled comment
Ive been having a bunch of random dysphoria attacks lately which are super fun to deal with. Especially around my face, both because of the shape and because I have sensitive skin so I can only shave once every 3 days (even then my skin gets super angry). I desperately dont want to be walking around with a beard but its kind of unavoidable, and I cant afford laser at this point in life. I just feel like no matter what I do Ill look like a man and I really dont want that. I just want to wear a mask everywhere but people look at me like I have tentacles for eyes when I do that. At least eyeliner looks good af on me, even if it takes me an hour to do it right.
Wow I was gonna write a comment but yeah this is also how I’m feeling minus the facial hair. It fucking sucks :(
My sibling in sadness, im sorry youre also going through it right now
what kind of razor do you use? bc for me switching from multi-blade to a de safety razor gave me a lot less irritation + it’s cheaper.
