I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to, although I don’t even dream of prosperous countries, i don’t care about quality of life, I’d be happy to live as shitty or even worse than I do now, just to feel free and protected and have nothing to do with a regime that kills people and the people who support it. But I’m sure that if I did so, I would feel disgust and self-loathing , since it would be an escape from the consequences of my own weakness and inaction, even if there are no direct consequences other than living in this decaying hole. And I think any russian honest with themselves is of the same opinion. Their whining like “It’s not my fault I was born in russia” when people from other countries rightly declare that they don’t want them there is irritating and disgusting, and I don’t know how anyone has the patience to deal with them. I don’t know how fair my reasoning is, and whether it’s simply due to my apathy or envy, although I think I’ve basically come to terms with my situation and don’t have any big plans for my shitty little life. I’d like to hear someone else’s point of view on this without pity or emotion.